Life Sentence

posted in: Stories of Hope

woman meditating


After my fourth L3-L4 surgery the neurosurgeon sat me down and said “…you are not going to get better but rather worse as you grow older. You have a life sentence of pain.” I’ve had 6 spinal surgeries and 20 additional surgeries. I know chronic pain intimately. After 25 years of debilitating chronic back pain with daily migraines my anxiety level was extreme. My C-reactive test was exceptionally high. I could barely endure another day of pain. It seemed hopeless. I gave up and attempted suicide 3 years ago.

Letting go of anger

Since that time I discovered that Dr. Hanscom’s program works. I faced my anger and resentment and rid myself of all of my negative thoughts towards others and towards my losses brought on by the pain. I forgave everyone who had ever hurt or slighted me. I consciously resolved to face new anger  issues as they came up. I’m now quick to forgive and forget. I carried a lot of anger from my childhood and through my painful journey as an adult. I finally discovered that holding on to anger is toxic to my health. I discovered that I could not get better until I rid myself of anger and resentment.

Getting centered

This program works for me if I will just follow the steps in the book. I’ve lost track of the number of times I’ve read Back in Control. I have found that daily meditation is my best avenue for continued healing and peace of mind. Meditation helps me stay centered, stay in the moment and greatly reduces my stress level. I’m a living example of why you must never give up hope. If I can cleanse myself and open new pathways to a life without chronic pain you can too.