There is no reward for being vulnerable for any species of life from one-celled organisms to homo sapiens. Consequences are severe and often swift. It is never safe to be off-guard, and different species create ways to be safe. They need to replenish fuel to fight another day. For example, a dolphin sleeps with one eye open. Many species form protective groups. Consider the number of ways creatures hide or camouflage themselves. Many species simply have thousands of offspring, so a few will survive. When these strategies fail, the final phase is whatever aggressive response they have available to them. The more strength and power, the better.

The added dimension of language

Humans have language, which creates another level of issues around seeking safety. We possess abstract thinking that allows us to engage in the arts, create coordinated societal actions, and have complex relationships with others. We rose to the top of the food chain because of our capacity to cooperate with each other. We have a strong evolutionary need to have close connections and relationships. For example, being socially isolated or lonely has the same effect on your health as smoking 15 cigarettes a day.¹ Look how much effort is put into seeing close friends and family during the holidays. We want to be with each other and the closer the better.

But one of the most perverse aspects of being human, is that successful thriving relationships require vulnerability and trust. These traits are the antithesis of feeling safe. Additionally, emotional/ mental pain is processed in a similar manner as physical pain.² “You hurt my feelings” and You broke my heart” reflect this phenomenon. So, we don’t like pain in any form, yet we have to become vulnerable in order to have deep and satisfying relationships. It is a huge problem, and it is not playing out well for the human race.

By definition, every interaction with another person requires taking a risk of being rejected or hurt. Even checking out at the grocery store involves trusting him or her to accurately document your purchases and help you with your bags. It is nice if they are in a good mood and are friendly. But what if they are having a bad day? Then there are deeper relationships such as being on a team, doing a project together, starting up any type of relationship, and living together. Being rejected at some level of the interaction is not only common, but also the rule. As you become more and more trusting, at some tipping point the level of vulnerability for that relationship will be reached, and one person will pull back or even reject it.

Your options

At this point, your choices are to 1) quit taking risks associated with interacting with others 2) engage but experience social anxiety 3) use whatever power you possess to control others 4) learn to be vulnerable. Since we don’t inherently possess the ability to feel vulnerable, the other less functional strategies are more commonly utilized.

Some form of anger is universal. Why? It keeps you safe. It protects you from both emotional and physical pain. Even if you don’t actually have the power to change the situation, you may feel like you do. Raw anxiety is intolerable and why we hold on to anger.

Why let go of anger?

• The main reason is that you simply cannot heal or thrive when you remain angry. The essence of healing is normalizing your body’s neurochemical state to that of a safety profile, which is profoundly restorative. If your whole system remains fired up, how can that happen? It can’t and won’t.
• Your brain structurally adapts to your focus of attention. You cannot move forward until you let go of the past, especially your deepest wounds. Most people in chronic pain remain angry at the situations or people who have harmed them. The more legitimate your gripe, the harder it is to move on. But how does holding on to the past make your life more enjoyable?
• Anger is destructive, as it is supposed to be. It’s your body’s last ditch effort to escape threat. It is destructive in every direction, including self-destruction. It is the reason why many people completely neglect every aspect of their health. It is tantamount to slow suicide.
• Anger is abusive and destroys relationships. The key element of successful human interactions is awareness of your needs and others’ needs. How else can you constructively interact with those close to you? Anger completely blocks awareness.
• Anger destroys families. Human consciousness evolved through language and social interactions. The ability to cooperate took homo sapiens from the bottom to the top of the food chain. The need for human connection is deep. Unfortunately, close connections are also the strongest triggers. Why would you ever be unkind to someone you care for so much? Why is the incidence of domestic abuse so high? It is maybe the most disturbing paradox of our human existence.
• Anger is the manifestation of the fight mode of the survival response. All organ systems are affected. The blood supply to your gut, bladder, and the frontal lobes of your brain diminishes and is shunted to your heart, lungs, and skeletal muscles. You can’t think clearly, although it might feel like you can. It is critical to, “Take no action in a reaction.”

Interacting with others involves taking the risk of being rejected or even hurt. There are physical risks, such as trusting a business partner who might run off with your money. What about your partner or spouse, who takes off with another person? These are deep ones, but simply reaching out to another person in friendship creates some level of anxiety.

Train your brain

You can use avoidance, suffer from chronic social anxiety, or resort to power and control to feel safe. The healthiest and most satisfying option is learning to be vulnerable and process rejection. In other words, being with anxiety. Being or feeling rejected is inherent to relationships, and unless you understand this, your world will become progressively smaller. Training yourself to lower your threat physiology (anxiety) instead of fighting it allows you to navigate life more easily. BTW, social connections are anti-inflammatory and lower anxiety.³ Addressing social anxiety is a bi-directional process. You can nurture joy, more easily interact with others, feel safer, and create the life you desire.

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References

1. Cigna US Loneliness Index. Cigna: 2018.
2. Eisenberger N. “The neural bases of social pain: Evidence for shared representations with physical pain.” Psychosom Med (2012); 74: 126-135.
3. Dantzer R, et al. Resilience and immunity. Brain, Behavior, and Immunity (2018); 74:28-42.https://doi.org/10.1016/j.bbi.2018.08.010

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Anger

Nonetheless, there are obstacles to becoming pain free. The absolute biggest block that I encountered daily was anger. I honestly didn’t know how to help a patient get past it. He or she becomes irrational. When you are chronically angry, it is your baseline, and you cannot even recognize that you are angry. I personally had no clue that I had any anger issues until I was 50 years old. In fact, one of the first lines to my wife when I first met her was that I was a “good catch” because  I had dealt with all of my anger issues. I am glad that neither of us had any idea that I had not even opened the door to my frustrations, as we never would have made it.

Noncompliant

The problem with anger is that you cannot listen and accurately assess a given situation. The conversation I have with a patient who is noncompliant goes like this. “Doctor, you mean to tell me that there is nothing wrong with my back? I have been in pain for several years and I know that this pain is not in my head. You must be missing something.”

I reply, “The pain you are experiencing is not imaginary pain, nor is it psychological. We know that if we did a functional MRI of your brain right now, the part of your brain that corresponds to your area of pain would light up brightly. All that matters is what is happening in your brain. We also know that the brain can fire spontaneously without an indentifiable source of the pain. I don’t just believe you have pain–I know you are experiencing pain and are frustrated about being trapped.”

I also explain to them that degenerated discs are normal as you age and that there is no correlation between a degenerated disc and back pain. The surgical success of a fusion for LBP is less than 30% with a significant downside of a failed surgery. They then say, “I don’t want surgery. I just want to be fixed and get my life back.” When I reply that we have had very consistent results following the steps outlined in this book, they explode saying, “I don’t want to read a book or anything like this. Just do something to fix my back.” They will then start ranting and often even yelling that no one will help them. Occasionally they will walk out of the room.

Anger is an absolute block to moving on

This is a frequent scenario. I would estimate that at least 50% of my patients fall somewhere in this part of the spectrum. They are noncompliant actually not by choice. I realize that chronic pain causes anger, but It is this anger that is also a complete block to engagement in effective treatment. Anger is destructive and it is multi-directional. It is particlurlarly self-destructive. You also have a strong sense of “being right” when you are angry and an even stronger sense of everyone else “being wrong.” I honestly do not know what to do to break this mind set.  I have tried everything from being confrontive to being incredibly patient. Nothing has worked. In fact, I have found that the longer I spend trying to convince someone to engage, the angrier they become. Angry people become upset when trying to be convinced to give it up. They just cannot hear me.

Address Your Anger

If you are angry or living in one of the above disguises of anger, be careful. You are trapped. You are truly stuck, and no one can even throw you a lifeline. What you cannot see is the havoc you are wreaking on those around you and onto yourself. I do not know how best to quell the anger rooted in chronic pain. I am open to suggestions.

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You’re never going to get rid of anxiety or anger. They are a necessary part of life. It has been demonstrated that avoiding these emotions will just increase their frequency. In the famous White Bears study, Dr. Wegner demonstrated that when you to try not to think about something, you will inevitably think about it more. Ignoring your anxiety and frustration will not get rid of those feelings, and the concept of self-esteem won’t help for a variety of reasons.

First, self-esteem involves endless judgments of you versus those around you. You are either “better than” or “worse than” the people around you. This line of reasoning creates labels; you cannot really see who other people are, what their needs might be, and how you might help. You have lost awareness. This is the antithesis of what is necessary for the world to become a better place – the acceptance and celebration of differences.

Second, attempting to build self-esteem involves using rational methods to deal with irrational neurological circuits. The emotional unconscious brain is much more powerful than the intellect; it’s a huge mismatch.

Third, what happens after you’ve achieved the things that should have alleviated your frustrations and anxiety, and it doesn’t work? (and it won’t) You will become more frustrated because there’s nowhere left to go. The list of high-profile people who have self-destructed is long. They usually had every imaginable comfort life has to offer. It’s impossible to outrun your mind.

Achievement Doesn’t Work

In the medical profession, it expected that you encounter death frequently. What is not as talked about is how often those deaths are of fellow medical caregivers taking their own lives. I know of 19 medical colleagues who are dead from suicide. Two close friends, and also four out of my eighty medical school classmates are dead from suicide.

These aren’t just numbers to me. I had a friend who was an excellent spine surgeon and one of those guys you could count on for anything. He had spent the day in surgery with me, assisting with a difficult operation. At two o’clock he shook my hand and said, “Nice case, I have an appointment I can’t miss.” He walked out, and three hours later shot himself.

All of them were “living the dream.” They were highly educated, wealthy, with big reputations, beautiful families – the list is endless. They possessed more than enough to have self-esteem. Yet the anxious, perfectionistic drive that pushed them to the top destroyed them.

Perfectionism

Perfectionism is rampant in the medical culture. Although “perfect” sounds reasonable when applied to surgery, it is actually deadly. What it does it creates an intense, chronic anxiety of “never being good enough,” and then frustration of never being able to achieve these unattainable goals. Perfectionism fosters anxiety-driven anger. Over time, the anxiety becomes intolerable. People don’t kill themselves because they are depressed. It is an angry act. Anger is destructive and the ultimate act of destruction is to destroy yourself.

I know this first-hand because I went through a similar experience that came to a head in 2002. I was actively suicidal with extreme anxiety for 18 months and crossed the line to put my plan into action. I was lucky. I made it through this gauntlet. I eventually published my story in 2011, in our national spine publication, SpineLine.

Nick and Holt

In my book, Back in Control, I talk about my son, Nick, and his friend Holt, who are both world-class mogul skiers. I learned many of the performance concepts presented in my book from watching them deal with the adversities of competing under intense pressure, while being at the mercy of judges. They were also obsessed with winning as the ultimate goal. Through working with an athletic performance coach, David Elaimy and also myself, they were able to learn to enjoy the journey regardless of the outcome.

In 2007, Holt won the national championship in mogul skiing. He felt that significant contributing factors to his victory were the awareness and visualization techniques presented in my book. One principle was letting go and performing with freedom. By connecting with his best effort instead of the outcome, his performance soared. The day after his victory, he turned to me and said, “You were right. Winning changed my life for about twelve hours. Life moves on.”

No matter your profession – a surgeon or an athlete – if you are connected with who you are, then you can create the life you want. If you are creating a life to fill a hole inside you, it becomes a major problem. It’s important and rewarding to strive for excellence; it just has nothing to do with decreasing anxiety and frustration.

“Better Not Look Down”

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